I Rant
Over and over again, for as long as I could remember, I have always felt misplaced in this society.I used to think it was normal. Part of growing up. You get confused, you sort it out, and everything falls into place.
As I grow older though, it hits me every morning I wakeup, the sad apprehension that this is not me “growing up”. Things are never going to fall into place. A worrying thought, which makes me want to stay curled up in my safe bed. To go back to sleep and never wakeup.
Let me clarify.No one killed my dreams. Nor have I ever been an oppressed woman. I have been given unlimited love, freedom and trust. I’ve been educated well and been given all the support, space and advice I have ever needed to achieve whatever aspiration I have ever had.I have educated parents, loving siblings and a good family.Health, wealth, class, beauty. Tick, tick, tick and tick.
What is it, you may question, that I lack? What am I ranting about?I’m not ungrateful, nor am I unappreciative. I promise.My issue is not personal. My dilemma is the fact that I cant just “let it be”I can’t seem to come to level with this society and its law and order.I am lost and I am never ashamed to admit it.
I am not talking about the typical exhausted issues, such as double standards, inequality, being scared of judgment and having to think twice before or after every word and action.I’m not even voicing my objection about being told what to do, believe in, who to love and how to live.
What angers me, is not knowing what the benchmarks are. Senseless, ridiculous cultural rules and traditions that have no relation and many times even clash with religion. Empty, aimless lives. Hollow spirits lead by the love of money and power.Shallow materialistic stupid girls who lack proper principles, opinions and most importantly purposes.Men who are hypocrites, lead double lives and think that their gender gives them the right to do so. After all, they are invincible
It exhausts me to be part of a world where right has become wrong, and the wrong have become correct in our eyes.Being stuck in this unhealthy rut with people who might as well be dead. While the world moves forward and leaves us behindI feel angry; I therefore rant
As I grow older though, it hits me every morning I wakeup, the sad apprehension that this is not me “growing up”. Things are never going to fall into place. A worrying thought, which makes me want to stay curled up in my safe bed. To go back to sleep and never wakeup.
Let me clarify.No one killed my dreams. Nor have I ever been an oppressed woman. I have been given unlimited love, freedom and trust. I’ve been educated well and been given all the support, space and advice I have ever needed to achieve whatever aspiration I have ever had.I have educated parents, loving siblings and a good family.Health, wealth, class, beauty. Tick, tick, tick and tick.
What is it, you may question, that I lack? What am I ranting about?I’m not ungrateful, nor am I unappreciative. I promise.My issue is not personal. My dilemma is the fact that I cant just “let it be”I can’t seem to come to level with this society and its law and order.I am lost and I am never ashamed to admit it.
I am not talking about the typical exhausted issues, such as double standards, inequality, being scared of judgment and having to think twice before or after every word and action.I’m not even voicing my objection about being told what to do, believe in, who to love and how to live.
What angers me, is not knowing what the benchmarks are. Senseless, ridiculous cultural rules and traditions that have no relation and many times even clash with religion. Empty, aimless lives. Hollow spirits lead by the love of money and power.Shallow materialistic stupid girls who lack proper principles, opinions and most importantly purposes.Men who are hypocrites, lead double lives and think that their gender gives them the right to do so. After all, they are invincible
It exhausts me to be part of a world where right has become wrong, and the wrong have become correct in our eyes.Being stuck in this unhealthy rut with people who might as well be dead. While the world moves forward and leaves us behindI feel angry; I therefore rant
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